Bewilderments of the Eyes eBook
Bewilderments of the Eyes eBook
The climb from the shadows of her cave into the bewildering sunlight is not an easy one, but Quinn can't afford not to try. When her friend insists on a spontaneous summer road trip, twenty-year-old Quinn Aldredge finds herself on a desperate and daring mission to reclaim the version of herself that was swallowed by depression. Not entirely sure if it's even possible to bounce back from something as bone-deep as depression, she abandons the numbing life she had established in her hometown and dives head-first into an attempt to break free from the confines of her own mind. If she wants to succeed, Quinn will have to learn a valuable lesson: sometimes the right path isn't the safest one. As her eyes adjust to the light of the living, she finds friendship, freedom, and romance waiting for her under the sun. Quinn wants nothing more than to uncover the old her, the one who smiled and socialized and actually participated in her own life without the whisperings of mental illness in her ear.
"Bewilderments of the Eyes by Theresa Sopko is a fascinating and heartfelt exploration into the crippling effects of depression.
Twenty-year-old Quinn Aldredge just wants to take back control of her life, but depression holds her captive. Can she find a way with the help of friends and loved ones to come to terms with her illness?
Mental illness, even in today’s world, is mostly a taboo subject. Sufferers, more often than not, feel ashamed. Those who aren’t afflicted, struggle over how to support loved ones or even how to broach the subject. However, thousands of people in the world have some form of mental illness, including depression.
While the subject matter is serious, Sopko infuses her characters and scenarios with doses of humor and compassion. Quinn and her struggles are front and center, as they should be, but they are dealt with care and honesty. She’s a sympathetic character, while at the same time, she can be frustrating. This is true to life. Living with depression or living with someone who has depression is not easy and the everyday difficulties come through loud and clear in Sopko's storytelling:
When you’re twenty years old with a privileged life and you can’t seem to manage talking on the phone, getting your homework done, doing your laundry, meeting new people, or getting out of bed on the weekends—the things that normal people can manage—you think you must be alone.
The novel is a realistic account of what depression does - how it suppresses pieces of people, bit by bit. It also highlights how frustrating it must be for those who are witnessing a friend or loved one slowly disappear. One thing is clear: depression doesn’t magically go away and will always be a factor in the person’s life.
Reading Quinn’s story really makes the reader think how lonely and exasperating it must be for those with mental illness. She’s constantly reminded by her parents, friends, and even herself that she should just snap out of it. Try harder. Let the person she used to be to come out:
My first mental breakdown is so vivid in my memory that it’s tough to remember a time before it.
But it’s not that simple, even if on the surface it seems like it should be. Sopko’s ability to convey both sides of the story transforms Bewilderments of the Eyes into an important novel that should be read by people dealing with depression, whether they are sufferers or know someone who is.
This novel is a powerful and important story that conveys the depth of Quinn and her struggles." 4 Stars from SPR
"I have never read a more vivid description of mental illness, even while Quinn is struggling to find the words. I see this book as having the potential to be a game changer for teens with mental illness." (Mercy Pilkington of Author Options)
"theresa sopko completely blew me out of the water with this book. i cried so much, as i could feel and relate to many of the things quinn was feeling. but, they weren't helpless and hopeless tears. they were tears of hurt, because i have felt and feel the same, but also tears of hope because if quinn can learn to slowly redirect her energy and life, even with depression and anxiety, then, i believe i can, too. this was a stunning, raw, and honest book. i definitely plan on returning to this book when i need a reminder that i can and will succeed and thrive in this life. thank you to theresa for putting many hours into such a perfect book!" (Cheyenne Raine, author of Maroon Daydreams & Charcoal Thunderstorms)
"Bewilderments is honest and up front about a topic which most people avoid, and lets the reader know that they are not alone on their daily journey." (Jessica Dho)